New Haven

We shoudd do something about that storage unit. Its really a relaxing place to chill and think. All we really need is a couch, a few chairs, and a desk. Touch it up with a few posters, cheap carpet, and a mini fridge and we'd be good to go. :) So let's do it. I need to start writing again. The house has waay to many distractions.

Pausing Greek...

..so I can write this. I was watching this show and it's awesome. 2 things...

First, There's one character who I thought acted exactly like me. But then again, I'm pretty sure I see myself differently then other people do. Because we all have this person that we'd like to be. So we do our best to emulate certain characteristics into our own. How do you see me as? Am I  a good friend? Lovable? Are there things about my personality that annoy you?  Describe me and  our relationship and be detailed please. Don't leave nothing out because I really wanna know. In return, Ill do the same for all my friends. (Unless you oppose)

Second, I've been thinking about the "girlfriend" issue quite a bit. No thanks to greek. After watching all these teen shows, it's no wonder people think of having a relationship. They really throw it in your face and rub it in. smh..

Here's a Thought.

Sweet dreams are made of these
Who am I to disagree?
I travel the world
And the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something.

As you lie in bed, snuggled underneath the covers with your eyes shut...
What/who is the last thing you think of before you drift off to sleep?

I think of what could happen mixed with uncertainty. I would like to write this long blog but I find it really hard to find the words to truly describe what i'm "feeling". Probably, because I know someone will read it. Even if I did I would most likely delete it like the last 2 entries. But whatever. To me, anger is the easiest emotion to express but I don't think it's no longer the issue. Actually, i believe it's been replaced with disappointement. smh.

But anyways, the other day right before I drifted off,  I thought about "having a long term relationship". Which actually shocked me because it barely crosses my mind. When it does happen, I brush it aside and think of the bigger picture. I thought about the perfect girl for me and then I realize she doesn't exist. It's so easy to manipulate how a girl thinks that I wouldn't know whats real. Plus, women are too much trouble to deal with. I don't believe I have the emotional capacity to even have a girlfriend. I'm way too concerned with my own problems. Then I thought maybe she could fix the problem. At least, partially fill up the emptiness .

Would that be the solution to all my problems? A girlfriend?
Someone to hold?
Someone to tell me that everything will be alright.
Someone that believes in me?

I could see it now...It's dark and we're lost in the tranquil sounds of the crashing waves. As we share a moment of clarity, we would continue to walk on the beach, under the bright stars, holding hands and whispering tender "I love yous" back and forth. The moment would be just right......when I lean in for the kiss. Then we would make hot passonate love on the beach and wake up at dawn with crabs.......crawling around next to us. Beautiful.

lmao yea right.

The Ever-Deceptive Youniverse

To mankind as a whole, the spelling of the word universe makes perfecet sense. However, from the perspective of
of each person individually, the spelling Youniverse seems to be more fitting.

Why?

Simply because each person on earth, regardless of how humble they may be, literally IS the center of the universe
as they see it. This is because each and every one of our own realities begin with us and expand outward from our point of view, we are the center of everything as we see it. This is why when we think of things such as how large the world actually is or how many other people are on the planet, it makes us feel small and insignificant because we are accustomed to being the center of our own small youniverse, and anything that proves that to be a false idea seems strange and foreign to us.

behold the Youniverse Effect.

Oh Snap.

ITS A FREE FOR ALL!!!! Demons vs. Angels vs Sam and Dean. EPIC!
I really thought he was going to die though. lol. Really really awesome.

Anyways, I deleted my facebook acount  and i've been thinking about shaving my head. Even though I love my hair, I've always wanted to see what I'd looked like if i had a buzzcut. yay.